I am finding a centralized theme that speaks louder than the rest as I read inspirational quotes to keep my attitude on a consistent positive level.
"Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself."- George Bernard Shaw
Sound resonates and I cannot help the unattractive appearance I am displaying. My reaction is genuine as laughter bellows, along with a few squeaks and piglet-like snorts. A candid conversation exposes the façade of ordinarily poised women. There are no restrictions or limitations to the chosen content of discussion. Uncensored truth, no secrets are kept amongst friends. She is fellow writer, comfortable and capable with divulging more in her works than I will ever be. I pose a question and wait for her opinion to unleash.
My mouth gaped open as the most inappropriate analogy spewed from her lips. I doubled over in hilarity at the outlandish mental depiction illustrated with her words. I could never bring myself to duplicate what was said. Instead, I turn flush and laugh out loud while thinking about the witty comparison. I can never look at common objects in the same light again.
Oddly enough, through this banter I am led to becoming even keel again. The vacant part of me has slowly distanced itself from disjointed fogginess. A few months ago I was convinced that I had hit rock bottom. However, reflecting on more recent events, I can say with great certainty that I am absolutely stewing in the epicenter of rubble at this point. A blessing in disguise, I needed a dramatic shift to redefine my definition of contentment.
I am down on my luck, but I am not broken.
Up to this point, those empty words were only recited in shallow depths, I was not strong enough to believe them yet. But now, I realize that there is simply no time to waste wallowing in self-pity. The ones that want to be a part of your life will always make the effort to persist as your priority. I am no longer accepting excuses for why some people just suck at life. I choose to laugh, wholeheartedly, and find amusement in the journey and the inconvenient paths down the road. I should know better, but I neglect the obvious choice.
Another chapter written, many more to come.
Up to this point, those empty words were only recited in shallow depths, I was not strong enough to believe them yet. But now, I realize that there is simply no time to waste wallowing in self-pity. The ones that want to be a part of your life will always make the effort to persist as your priority. I am no longer accepting excuses for why some people just suck at life. I choose to laugh, wholeheartedly, and find amusement in the journey and the inconvenient paths down the road. I should know better, but I neglect the obvious choice.
Another chapter written, many more to come.
